Suicide girl

Svi moji uspjesi i ne uspjesi u zivotu...

24.08.2006.

...kurva sudbina...

...sjedim i nešto razmišljam...
Promatram svijet oko sebe...
Zadovoljna sam!...zadovoljna sam sobom,svojim radom i životom uopće...
Ali nešto mi uvijek fali i tako kontam...
Da li sam mogla drugačije?...da li sam dobro izabrala i da li uopšte mohu utjecati na svoju sudbinu?
Da li imamo utjecaja ili je sve svejedno,odlučili mi ovako ili onako,poslije će to biti kako je zapisano...?
Da li i male glupave odluke utiču na dalji tok naših života?
ili je to sve viša sila...
Ne žalim ni za čim učinjenim ali da li ču poslije žaliti za propuštenim... ili je to svejedno tako moralo biti?
Da li smo mi gospodari svojih života i sudbina?
Zašto kada smo u nedoumici pitamo druge za savjete,ili čak pustimo da drugi odluče za nasi onda se kao prepustimo sudbini...
ZAŠTO???
Da bi ako se desi nešto loše mogli druge okriviti za to ili sudbinu?
Kako pravilno odabrati?...ili tačnije kako od dva dobra znati šta je bolje?
Ja vjerujem u sudbinu,ali vjerujem na taj način da nam sudbina namješta situacije i sad je na nama šta čemo odlučiti,i nema tačnih i netačnih odgovora....
to je kao neka igrica gdje svaki dan donosimo male odluke koje nas dižu do sljedećeg nivoa gdje nam se postavlja VELIKO PITANJE ili PREKRETNICA i zavisno od odgovora otvaraju nam se druga polja,ali se i zatvaraju polja od onog drugog odgovora.Tako da je skoro pa jasno dokle idu ti nivoi od tog odgovora i mi tu možemo donekle imati ujecaja.
Ja sad neću više filozofirati,neću se ni opterećavati šta sam mogla i šta nisam...nego ću živjeti trenutno,u sadašnjem vremenu ali je dobro s vremena na vrijeme stati i pogledati koliko si nivoa prešao i u kom smijeru ideš...
i da zaključak teme:MISLIM DA UVIJEK IMAMO IZBORA

19.08.2006.

a blast from the past...

...nisam mogla da vjerujem kad sam procitala sms...pomislih da je neka zajebancija,ali nije bila...tome se bas nisam nadala i bila sam u najmanju ruku iznenadjena i ugodno i neugodno...cudno...a bas sam je sanjala neku noc...nas tri ponovo zajedno, zezamo se,imamo svoj svijet....ugl rijec je o curi koju sam spominjala u svom prvom postu...covjece....nakon 3 i po godine....3 i po godine i poslala mi je sms... zasto se nije javila 3 i po god i zasto se javila sad nakon 3 i po godine nisam dobila odgovor...ali mozda nije ni vazno...
uskoro cemo se vidjeti...pitam se da li se promijenila...ne mislim fizicki...bile smo jako bliske skoro 10 godina nasih zivota,djetinstvo provele zajedno...prve simpatije,prve raskide,prve menstruacije,prva pjanstva,prva cigara,prvo sminkanje,prva bjezanja s casa,prvi izlasci,prvi koncerti....sve je to bilo izbrisano jednom nocu,i jednim periodom od 3 i po godine...TIME DESTROY EVERYTHING...

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SUICIDE GIRL ČITA:

the World is M I N E !
[i][b]I believe in the wonder
I believe this new life to gain
Like a God that I'm under
There's a drugs running through my veigns

I believe in the wonder
I believe I can touch the flame
There's a spell that I'm under
Got to fly, I don't feel no shame

The world is mine
The world is mine
The world is mine

I've lost my fear to war and peace
I don't mind that (the world is mine)
You took the price and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)

Take a look what you've started
In the world flashing from your eyes
And you know that you've got it
From the thunder you feel inside

I believe in the feeling
All the pain that you left to die
Believe in believing
In the life that you give to try

The world is mine
The world is mine
The world is mine

I've lost my fear to what appears
I do my best(the world is mine)
You seem suprised and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)

The world is mine
I've lost my fear to what appears
I do my best(the world is mine)
You seem suprised and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)

I've lost my fear to what appears
I do my best (the world is mine)
You seem suprised and realize
That to your eyes (the world is mine)[/b][/i]
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I would die for you
I would die for you
I've been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you're mine

I will cry for you
I will cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears
And drown your fear

I will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you

See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time I am talking
You will believe in me
And I will never be ignored

I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart
I'll tear it apart

I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see
You're just like me

Violate all my love that I'm missing
Throw away all the pain that I'm living
You will believe in me
And I can never be ignored

I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I'd do time for you
I would wait for you
I'd make room for you
I'd sail ships for you
To be close to you
To be a part of you
'Cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you.
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FIX YOU...

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide your home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Nightwish - Sleeping Sun
The sun is sleeping quietly

Once upon a century

Wistful oceans calm and red

Ardent caresses laid to rest

For my dreams I hold my life

For wishes I behold my nights

A truth at the end of time

Losing faith makes a crime



I wish for this night-time to last for a life-time

The darkness around me - shores of a solar sea

Oh how I wish to go down with the sun

Sleeping

Weeping

With you



Sorrow has a human heart

From my God it will depart

I`d sail before a thousand moons

Never finding where to go

222 days of light

Will be desired by a night

A moment for the poet`s play

Until there`s nothing left to say

Irresponsible Hate Anthem
I am so all-american, I'll sell you suicide
I am totalitarian, I've got abortions in my eyes
I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper
I am not the animal who will not be himself
fuck it

Hey victim, should I black your eyes again?
Hey victim,
You were the one who put the stick in my hand
I am the ism, my hate's a prism
let's jut kill everyone and let your god sort them out
fuck it

Everybody's someone else's nigger/I know you are so am I
I wasn't born with enough middle fingers/
I don't need to choose a side
I better, better, better, better not say this
better, better, better, better not tell
I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper
I am the idiot who will not be himself

fuck it

FUCK IT!!!!!!

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